Dreaming of a Life Less Ordinary

I am sitting here with time, but I don't have a lot to say.  I am not sure why but life seems to be a lot like this lately.  I almost feel like I have lost my voice but not my ability to dream.  Perhaps, I am in a little rut this a.m.  I woke up not feeling it so I cancelled my workout.  Another shitty Sunday of sleep kicked me in the ass again.  Then I followed that up meeting a surgeon about my potential hernia.  The good news is there is no hernia.  The bad news is the surgeon I had met before he was the weight loss surgeon, I had met a few years ago.  He didn't remember me.  He felt me up to see if there was a hernia, there was not.  I guess I should feel like I got some.  However, seeing him again made me sad and it makes me feel like I have about a million things I want to say and scream at the top of my lungs but it also makes me feel castrated.  I am tired of being told I am young and I have a lot of ailments, aliments that could be fixed easily, with just the flip o

I believe in my heart that a positive self image is the foundation of a good life.  I thought the old title was some how ironic.  It would be catchy and get people to come read what I had to write.  I believed that if people were reading my blog, that I would want to blog more and more.  However, that hasn't been he case.  I don't think making jokes at my own expense are serving me anymore.  I wish I could take all credit for realizing this, but I have to give Jill props for calling this out to me.  I realized that it was not serving me.  The point of me writing a blog is part journal, part story, part putting myself into the world, because once I admit it to myself and put it out in the universe it is real. So, I think it was time to change the name because I think it is time for me to look at things from a positive light.  I get a little better every day and yay, I don't show results like I would if i would go cut my stomach in half or if I took some weight loss drug or f

So happy the Action for Happiness app is working on my phone again and it is reminding me to look at the different calendars they have on tap!  This month we are looking at Optimistic October!!  The quote comes form the Dalai Lama and is "Choose to be optimistic. It feels better" Optimistic October kicks off by asking you to "Write Down Your Most Important Goals for this Month" I think that is something I can handle :^) 1. Work out 4 days a week 2. Only eat dinner out 1 night a week 3. Only eat lunch out 2 times per week 4. Only eat breakfast out 3 times per week (I am talking to you breakfast bagels) 5. Write in my blog 2 times a week 6. Follow the action for happiness Optimistic October Calendar I want to write down a million but I think this is a good place to start.  This month is going to be challenging the lat month of the quarter, so fingers crossed we can stick to this.  There will be late nights, so insanity might follow!  I will look to