Why the name change...

I believe in my heart that a positive self image is the foundation of a good life.  I thought the old title was some how ironic.  It would be catchy and get people to come read what I had to write.  I believed that if people were reading my blog, that I would want to blog more and more.  However, that hasn't been he case.  I don't think making jokes at my own expense are serving me anymore.  I wish I could take all credit for realizing this, but I have to give Jill props for calling this out to me.  I realized that it was not serving me.  The point of me writing a blog is part journal, part story, part putting myself into the world, because once I admit it to myself and put it out in the universe it is real. So, I think it was time to change the name because I think it is time for me to look at things from a positive light.  I get a little better every day and yay, I don't show results like I would if i would go cut my stomach in half or if I took some weight loss drug or forced myself to eat only food I hated.  However, the results I get are in my heart and mind and that is what matters.

My entire life I have never been able to be who I am.  I have never had the chance to find me.  I have always lived up to someone else expectation, or wanted image.  I chased dreams for years that weren't mine.  Now we slowly but surely start to carve-out my own life.  My experience and expectation.  I do what I want when I want.  I slowly take steps towards being the man who I want to be.  I am not sure were I am going, but I am going there and I go with a positive mental attitude and I go with my own goals and dreams.  I am on a journey now with my co-pilot Kona but we move forward with hope in our hearts in dreams in our heads.