Time for a Change...

 

After II

Before

After I

I had known it was time for a change for a while.  It had been three+ years since I had really cut my hair.  Yes, I kept the sides shaved and the top pulled back, and kept a nice warrior style hair thing going on, but my hair had become ratty, unhealthy and stringy.  I really didn't like the way it looked when it wasn't pulled back into a man bun.  I almost pulled the trigger last time I went to see Ivan at the Livermore Barbershop Emporium but I didn't.  I figured maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought it was.   However, my sister Heidi and her girls let me know it was every bit as stringy and damaged as I thought it was.  Allie and I even sat outside a barbershop in the Haute as I debated getting it cut off.  However, at the end of the day I didn't feel like I could do that to Ivan.  He had become my go to for beard and hair trims over the last year.  So, I decided that I would wait until I got back to California and get back in to see him before I did anything drastic.  By the time last night rolled around and it was time to go the barber I was ready.  It was time to change things up.  I showed him a couple of pictures of what I thought might look good.  He did the rest.  I think he did an awesome job.  The only issue I have is it is a little shorter on top than I would love so if I don't put some product in it, I look like I have an old school flat top.  Which isn't terrible but I am not sure it is really good either.  So, I just have to wait a week for it to grow out and then it will lay naturally.  I would rather not use product, if I don't have to, but oh well.  It is a good cut.  I am very happy with it and it really was time for a change.

As I have time now while on recovery.  I do have time to think about what other changes I need to make in my life.  I have done so many good things, but there are still places, I want to get better at.  Things that I want to do differently.  Things I want to let go of and things I just want to straight up change.  To many things in the works to talk about them all here now.  However, change is on the horizon.  

I think when you have time to think, it helps you prioritize things.  It also helps you realize that some of the things that you have been doing are more detrimental than you might realize.  For example when you sit down and actually look at a bag of skinny pop and realize that if you happen to eat an entire bag over the course of an afternoon and evening, you are taking in over 670 calories.  WTF!  I had no idea it was that many calories.  I just always assumed my skinny pop was free calories... boy I feel like a dunce.  I realized this when I actually logged the popcorn I ate yesterday watching batman forever.  I was struck dumb by that.  I can only imagine what those little handful of jelly beans could add up to or the those sugar free popsicles.  I guess I shouldn't have to imagine.  I should just log and see what they do add up too.  Sure 3 popsicles at 15 calories a piece is 45 calories not big deal.  So what about if you eat ten of them because you just love to crunch on the ice?  Sure not the worst thing in the world you can do but...  Again, this isn't about doing good and bad things it is about times for change and time for accountability.  It is about time for making small changes like a hair cut that makes you feel better.  Or logging everything you put into your mouth so you can control what is going on with your body.  

These are good little changes for now.  There are larger changes on the horizon.  Some I am not ready to talk about yet and some that I am.  We are taking an inventory on our life and starting to look at where we want to be and what we want to do.  Although, now is time still for recovery.  We still have a lot of that to do as we come off the painkillers we realize that a little bit more. So, logging and hair styling will be all the change we take on today :D